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[campjesus]

[ brody slips a piece of paper under a certain someone's door, then vanishes for hours.

when he returns he is wearing a hat and a robe and commanding a small army of skeleton turtles. why? why not, that's why. ]

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[campjesus]

It's not you. [ chomp. ] You look tired.

[surface_level]

Mm.

It is cold here.

[campjesus]

You wanna go lie down?

[surface_level]

My room is not clean.

[campjesus]

I don't care.

[surface_level]

[ He rubs a spot on his arm for a few minutes as if intently trying to warm just that area, then finally nods. ]

[campjesus]

Okay. [ he nudges his knee again, then sits up and moves in the direction of lucas' room. ]

[surface_level]

[ He holds Brody's hand as they walk, looking more ill as he starts to feel guiltier. He really wasn't kidding. When he opens the door, crockery is smashed on the floor and mixed with little piles of coins, uneaten food is rotting in a corner, the fridge is hanging open, most of the clothes he owns are piled on the bed smelling like sweat, and the scent of sick hangs about. ]

[campjesus]

What happened?

[surface_level]

I do not have my drug.

[ Now that that's out, Lucas is aiming for the bed. That blanket is necessary. ]

[campjesus]

Mm.

[ he follows him after a moment, curling around him under the blanket and piles of dirty clothes. he's as cold as he always is, but doesn't notice. ]

You're still using?

[surface_level]

[ Lucas gathers clothes, blanket and Brody closer. The squeeze ends in a shiver. ]

I was.

I do not like to be with others during.

[campjesus]

[ brody buries his face in his chest. ] During?

[surface_level]

When I am on morphine.

[campjesus]

Mm.

I wish you'd told me. I would have taken care of you.

[surface_level]

I would not have wished for you to be near.

[campjesus]

It's nothing I haven't seen before.

[surface_level]

You have not seen it from me.

[campjesus]

Why don't you want me to see it?

[surface_level]

I dislike to be similar to these others from your past. I do not know how to explain.

[campjesus]

Why does my past bother you so much?

[surface_level]

It is not happy for you.

This that I feel for you, it is new and it is beautiful to me. If I am to you a thing like your past-

[campjesus]

[ he butts his head against his chest. ] I like you. You're my person. You don't have to be perfect all the time. You don't even have to be fine. I just want you to be okay and if you're not, then I want to help.

[surface_level]

You will not grow to hate me because I am like them.

[campjesus]

I would never hate you.